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[Nov. 18th, 2005|12:41 am] |
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I have nothing to do, so I'll write in this....
This weekend is going to be my "productive" weekend, hopefully. I have
to finish 2 1/2 art projects by December 2nd. I hope I make it. I have
my ideas and all but I'm starting late in the 9 weeks. I've been
procrastinating, but it's just that I have no motivation to do
anything. It sucks! I'm going to be working on my box this weekend,
it's going to be pretty. I hope. The outside of it is a scene from
Cambodia, it's a wall & a tree. I'm thinking of making the tree out
of plaster, I'm not sure though. I have to talk to Ms. Underwood about
it. Send me luck, please.
I miss Ashley, well...actually, I miss all my friends. I miss the ones
I've lost, the ones I still have, and the ones that I never had but had
a chance. I seem to get friends that always have ewwy parents. Ashley's
mom is being a total bitch, and won't allow her to go anywhere or do
anything. That is unless it is going to work / school. I can't believe
her. She's ruining her & her daughters relationship. Ashley already
says she hates her, which makes me sad because no one should hate their
parents. It should be an unconditional love. But I guess I see it a
different way, I have plenty of reason why I could "hate" my parents,
but I don't and never will. I miss Sarah, because we never get to see
each other anymore and I really want to dance with her. I miss Katums,
because well...even though I see her every 5 days out of the 7, we
never get to hang out outside of school. I kind of miss Liz, what we
used to have; our old friendship was amazing & fun. I don't think
we'll ever get that back. Our relationship is deteriorating really
fast....really, really fast. I miss Kerry, because I just do. I know
the real her more than a lot of people do, I know the sensative, fun
girl that a lot of people just see as a party going whore. =/ It's
quite sad. And KayDee, I miss her too. I know she's going through a lot
now....but our friendship faded in a slow way...it's sad. I miss Adam
& Martin, mainly because they're not here. Also because we used to
all talk and everything, now it's like we're kind of all going our
seperate ways.
I'm still nervous about school / college. I really have that
"senioritis" thing now, I hate it. I just want it to be over. I'm ready
to go on with life, live on my own...do my own thing. I will continue
doing my artwork and I think it'll be better for me because I'll have
time to do it when I want to. Not when my teacher says it needs to be
done. I will get things done, it just takes me some time. I promise to
myself that I'll succeed in whatever I try to do. That's a promise I'm
bound not to break.
I miss Chad, but who doesn't know that?! Being that we haven't seen
each other in over a month, it's beginning to feel like just an
internet relationship. Of course, that's not the case...but I was
thinking about it and it really is beginning to feel like it. I was
trying to look for bus prices, to go visit him. Unfortunately, I had no
luck, I think mainly because I'm too impatient for that stuff. I'll go
downtown sometime and figure it out. It's in the range from 50-60
dollars. I probably don't have that and I am not sure if it really is
worth going because he'll work anyway. I guess I'll just have to see. I
really hope he gets a car before New Years, because I really want to be
with him then. I'll finally get my kiss when the ball drops. I think
that if he can't come here, I'll definitely go there.
I need to start driving, too. I think that's all I need to say about that one.
I guess I'm going to go though, because I can't think of anything else to say. If I do, I'll bring it up in the next entry.
<3 Adrienne
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[Oct. 27th, 2005|01:07 am] |
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Ah, new journal.
I don't really know what to say right now. Life is going by so fast
& so many things have changed. I barely talk to anyone anymore, in
person or online. It seems as though I get up in the morning, and by
the time I really awake, it's time to go back to bed and start over.
I've been hanging out with Ashley a lot. I love her to death, she's an
amazing friend. She brings the kid out of me, and I really enjoy that.
She and Adam are keeping me going lately. Also, receiving Martin's
letters make me happy too.
I have been stressing out about a lot of things lately, and to my
amazement, it doesn't even involve family. School & friends are a
big part of it. I miss hanging out with Kerry, Liz, Katums, KayDee, and
Sarah. Seeing Sarah at school made me so happy, but left some sad too.
It made me realize that it's getting harder to hang out with her and I
hate that. We've barely hung out a lot anyway, but when we did it was
amazing. She's so full of life and just being around her makes you feel
like a better person. And Katums, you're amazing babe. I can't put into
words how great of a person you are & how much I wish your life
will always be as nice to you as you are to everyone else. KayDee,
jeez....it's crazy how fast we became best friends and how fast we
stopped everything. I know you've had a lot going on in your life and I
know you need things that don't involve me. I would love to get
together with you sometime. I'm not going to say much about Kerry
because I know she doesn't read this. But I really do miss her.
And for Liz, I don't know what we are anymore. Just today Ms. Underwood
(whom I confide in with my problems with Liz) asked me today "Well, are
you and Liz friends this week?" How sad of a question is that? I never
thought it'd come to this. At first, it was her being selfish and
saying she wanted to hang out but never did. She'd always tell me lies
about how busy she was when what her definition of busy was "doing
Alex" Then it was the whole Chad thing. That seems to have faded some,
even though she still tells me from time to time how much she hates him
and wishes he'd die. And now, it's back to the same old Liz, the one
that thinks she's my best friend but will never do anything with me or
talk to me out of school. I will absolutely give up at the end of the
year if she doesn't push herself to do anything about our relationship.
I'm tired of worrying about it, and I'm tired of trying to tell her how
I feel. It never sticks in her brain.
On the good note, although I flipped out about having to get my art
work done on time I got a 97% A in Art V Portfolio Prep. All my classes
I have check on, which would be Comm. Tech, Art Portfolio, and
Government...I have an A in. Ranked number 2 in Comm Tech. I'm pretty
proud of that one. I finished my colored pencil drawing and everyone
loved it. They said it's my best yet. The post-it notes one turned out
amazing too, I never thought it'd turn out as well as it did. And the
one I did at the beginning of the year, where almost everyone has
forgotten about...the canvas bag, it's in the School District art show.
Also, Ms. Underwood told me that all the portfolio students will have
their own spot in the Creative Affair art show this year; I'm pretty
excited about that one. There are 9 more days until I see Gwen, BEP,
and Dennis, and 14 more days until I am finally a legal adult. That's
so scary. Believe me, I want to grow up, but it's happening too fast. I
hate worrying about college too, grr!
Hmm, what's more I can say, to add to even more of this huuuuge post.
?! I missed seeing The Corpse Bride, I guess I'll just have to wait
until it comes to dvd. I know I'll get it the first day it comes out. I
saw "Waiting" and let me tell you, that is one of the funniest movies
I've seen in I don't know how long. Of course it's going to be amazing
when Dane Cook's in it. : ]
I can't wait until I get to see Chad, we really need to get together again.
I guess I'm going to go now though, if you read this...thanks bunches.!
Love, Adrienne
ps - "Sarahahahaha (5:55:09 PM) 10/27/2005: ily. you're so wise. you're like a miniature buddah. with mouth piercings" Ah, she speaks the truth. ily Miss Sarah.!
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[Oct. 19th, 2005|01:12 am] |
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hey, remember those days when you thought being a grown up was the coolest?
...yeah, me too.
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[Oct. 15th, 2005|07:19 pm] |
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i so hate being sick. my ear hurts, my throat feels weird, my tummy
aches because i'm coughing too much, and all i want to do is sleep. a
lot. rawr. i can't wait to get better. i haven't been this sick in
quite awhile, but i knew it was coming. once october comes around, it's
sick time.
i still haven't got to see the corpse bride, ashley was kind to ask me
to go today but just going to the mall yesterday almost killed me. i'm
serious when i say ashley is one of my best friends, i've known her
forever but haven't got to know her. i'm glad we've hung out a lot
more, she's such a sweet girl. i so appreciate the people like her,
adam, sarah, and katums. i know they'd never do anything to
intentionally hurt me. I LOVE YOU GUYS !!!
liz & i are better now, i guess. we talk more and all. she still
doesn't want to hear about chad. it still makes me sad that i can't
express how happy i am with him to her. i mean, i can talk about it to
others...but liz has been ..or was, my best friend for quite sometime
now. i'm sure you guys know exactly what i mean. i know i shouldn't
complain though, it is...after all, her ex-boyfriend.
now, to inform you all....chad & i are 'dating'....not boyfriend /
girlfriend. but as he puts it "we're dating, with room to progress." so
i guess we'll see how that goes. i hate being a girl, we're too
emotional. we all put 100% of our heart into things too soon. yesterday
he did say he loved me though, & that kind of scares me. i don't
want to start saying that because, like i explained to adam, it's
putting too much emotion into it. last time i said i love you too soon,
& we all know how that turned out. *thumbs dooowwwnn* i'm not going
to push away from it though, i know if i said i love you to someone
& all they replied back with was a smile. ...i'd be sad. so blah,
that's my little situation.
uhm....this week's going to suck, it's an odd week. ugh.! i hate my odd
days. oh, & i have to finish 2 projects by the 25th. rawr.
i went to the mall yesterday, saw kaydee, but she was super busy so we
didn't bother her. saw my old boss, she didn't say anything to me
because she knows how bad she screwed me over. grr.! went into hawt
tawpik, best place everrrrrr! [right?!] Victoria's Secret doesn't have
lingerie for me....i was pretty bummed. i'm on so much medication right
now, i keep zoning off. it kind of sucks, i wish i were feeling better.
i miss people, a lot.
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I wish people would stop fucking being whiney little brats. (ie. Elizabeth Harrison)
"adrienne im seriously sick of this. im hurt. im not sorry i am. so
just let it be. you dont have a reason to be mad at me lol. but
whatever im sick of this. night."
Elizabeth has no clue how lucky she is. She has parents that will do
anything for her, she has a boyfriend that loves her so much, & she
has a job that she enjoys. What she doesn't have is respect from
friends that she had a long time ago. And these friends, are people I'd
have to say only USED to be her friends and don't want have anything to
do with her anymore. The reason, she's too self-absorbed. All she does
is whine about how she's so upset all the time & how so many things
are going bad. BUT she does have Alex, and he's the "only thing that
makes her happy." Liz has pushed herself from so many good things in
her life & no matter how many 'warnings' you give her, it still
does not sink into her head. I've tried for over a year to show Liz
that our friendship is falling apart & we need to fix it. "Yeah, I
know, Adrienne. I promise we'll hang out as soon as I can get a break."
Too bad I didn't even see her face once during summer & we've yet
to hang out. But she does have time for Mr. Alex. [Looks like someone
else breaks promises too, that greatly affect the emotions of another.]
I'm betraying her for even liking Chad. She doesn't take the fact that
I even confided in her in consideration; she doesn't give me time to
explain that I just wanted her to know, so that it is not like I'm
running around with secrets. 'Best Friends tell each other everything.'
I'm trying to be the "best friend" but not anymore. Friendship is not
one-sided, and I've been at this alone for quite sometime. I'm not
going to be blamed for giving up because anyone that knows me can say
that I fucking tried.
There's so much more I could say but it's just a waste of time. I've
always been told that once you leave high school you lose a lot of your
friends you thought would be there. I never thought for one second that
I'd lose my best friend.
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[Sep. 24th, 2005|10:37 pm] |
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( [ we like the cars that go boom ] )
Alright, so I'm going to chit chat about my weekend....because I actually did stuff.
[ Friday ]
I went to school, then came home. I talked to some people on the
computer until Ashley called me. She came over and we hung out for
awhile. She wanted to go see J.R. (boy she's "talking" to) so we rode
to the 7-11 (where girls stay up all night) to meet him. We met up and
went to his house. His friend, Ian, was with him so we had bunches of
fun. They like wrestling a lot and gave us a show. haha It was great.
It was fun to watch them play the wrestling video games because they
got SO into it. Oh, oh !!! And J.R.'s roomate has a cat ....cutest cat
everrrr. We went out to Arby's because Ashley and I were hungry. Ian's
a nice guy, he opens doors for girls. How cute?! I was pretty much
amazed by that. We came back to the house and sat around for awhile.
Hmm...then we decided to go to my house and watch the best comedian, Mr.
Dane Cook. [thank you] So we chilled at my house. The boys left and
Ashley and I stayed up until like 3:30 am talking and listening to oh
so radical music. duhz.
[ Saturday ]
This is going to be short and sweet. I
really didn't do anything. Woke up around 9 am and talked to Ashley
until 10 am...because that's when she had to leave for work. I was
bummed, I wanted her to stay longer. I'm so glad she got to hang out,
and even spend the night. It was joyous. No kidding. Mom, Johnny, and
Doodle were gone all day. (Johnny at Eli's and Grannie's; Mom &
Doodle to the Tech game) So I had the house to myself. It was exciting.
I watched both Kill Bill 1 & Kill Bill 2.
I really enjoyed them. My favorite was when they chopped off someone's
head, arm, leg, etc the blood spattered SO much. haha. It was like a
water hose. That's all I did, and ate Domino's for dinner. haha Good
right?
[ Sunday ]
Today I woke up late. Grr. So I got ready to go to Ashley's baby
shower and after that the Family reunion / birthday party / whatever
thing. We went to the baby shower for, no kidding, like 10 minutes. [we
were late because mom had to work] After that we went to the family
thing. I loved it. Buddy is my fave!! He's so funny and calls me his
little angel. Everytime I see him he goes "You are so beautiful, but
why do you have to have all those things (piercings) in your face?!"
haha I hate that...but I still have to laugh. My Poppy (grandpa) made
me laugh too. Oh, and there was a guy there (kind of my cousin...I
guess) that looks exactly like my other cousin that I'm closer to. It
amazed me. Oh, and the little girl above...that's his daughter. After
the family thing I came home and made my book cover for english. Now,
I'm here. Ugh, school tomorrow. =(
Thanks for reading this, homies. hehe
[heart] Adrienne! |
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I HATE ALGEBRA !!!!!!!!!
I'm so bad at that stuff, and I
sleep in that class every day. I can't help it, the teacher is boring
(although, not as boring as Mrs. Wise) and I just hate it. I will
understand it in class and all but when I do homework it's like...nope,
you suck. I think that and possibly government are going to be my
hardest classes. I don't even have to have college algebra because I
already have all the maths I need. I'm almost done with my canvas bag,
I'm so glad too. I hate painting people and/or drawing them. It's so
difficult. I'm kind of not even excited for my next projects either.
With the exception of the "pop art" of Miss. Sarah hahahaha! Hmm,
computer graphics is joyous, I'm glad I have class with Katums and
TIMUG. Ooo and communication technology is going to be SOOOOO easy!!!
Mrs. Smith loves me so very much, (duh, what's not to love) and so I
get whatever I want. haha Today we had a test in there, I studied for 5
minutes right before and got a 100/104. Awesome, yo! Kanye West makes
me happy. [insert silly smile face I make that makes Sawah laugh a lot]
Speaking of Sarah, (hahaha) she and I are going to have girls and
they're going to be best friends. Stella & Bliss = bff ! They're
going to have minnie mouse slippers and wear their hair in pigtails.
haha They're going to be the cutest kids in the world (duh). I am
artist of the month, and it sucks. Uhm, hopefully Jessica and Kerry and
I can hang out. I really need to hang out with Jessica more, because if
I really look into it, I know Jess will be one of my best friends.
Martin made me a choker and it broke in the mail, rawr ...but I'm going
to fix it...because it makes me happy. It has a cute duckie with it,
and I love duckies. [<3] Thank you Mawtizzie. Corpse Bride comes out
on Friday, I'm so going. ....bitch (that was for you Sarah). Oh,
I'm going to start babysitting...that's exciting. I got my Monroe
pierced. You love it. haha j/k. I don't know what else. Thanks for
reading.
<3 Adrienne
Oh, Oh, Oh !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Dennis and I meet in 47 days. YAYYYYY! (and possibly Martin & Adam also. I'm excited)
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So here's the deal, in my journal...I apparently never
right anything good. I wish I could, but I really feel like whining.
haha And there's no need for comments or anything, I just want to get
it out.
The past couple weeks have went by so fast but it still feels like
nothing good has / will happen anytime soon. My friends and I barely
talk. The only person I reallllly talk to lately, like a lot is Ashley.
And I'm pretty sure that's only because she gives me rides and we have
lunch together every day. I really miss my friends. =( I never
hang out with anyone anymore. I do try though, I promise. The only
people I've hung out with recently is Becky, Lisa, and Nikki.
Don't get me wrong, I loooove hanging out with them. but they are
people I've known for a short time, and for once...I'd like to hang out
with someone my age, someone I've been a friend to for a long time,
someone that I can tell anything to. I miss hanging out with KayDee, it was fun when we actually did. And Sarah, we have only hung out once...but let me tell you, that was the best time I had had in forever. Katums, we've never hung out, and that's sad. =\ Our plans always get ruined. Kerry,
she's too busy to do anything. Either she's with Kendra or she's out
with some other friends. I talked to Devin and he said he practically
was with her all week, and all I'm asking for is a couple of hours. And
here's the biggest one, the one that makes me sad and just feel so
lost. Elizabeth. I love her to
death, at least the old her and only part of the new her. We used to do
everything together, we'd be with each other every weekend. It's not
all because she has a job, because we even hung out a lot when she had
just started at Hot Topic. First, she started dating Chad, whom of
which I'm getting along with now. ANNDDD I don't blame him for ruining
Liz anymore, he's totally nice and he's changed. But Liz showed me that
she's exactly the same with all boys. She and I have talked [ through
net ] and obviously she didn't get where I was coming from. I totally
gave her her freedom, I'm NOT going to bother asking her to hang out
anymore. It's her choice now, when she wants to do things. We are all
going through a lot, but we always have time for friends. I think I'm
going to end talking about her because it really saddens me. She used
to be my best friend in the whole world. =\ And to dear Martin,
he's so amazing. I can't explain how happy he makes me feel. Even
though we don't talk as much as we used to, he always finds ways to
make me feel just as special as he did when we talked basically every
night. I cannot wait to be around him, I know I'll always have a smile
on my face when we're together. Mr. Adam,
jeez...he is so nice to me. There are no words that can explain how I
feel for him. I love him to death. He compliments me and basically says
that everything I do and say is great. (well, except for when I say
things like "word" and sing Kanye....then he'll just say I'm too white
for my own good) But these are reasons I feel so much for him. I know
he and I are going to be friends for a very, very long time. Dennis, we
don't talk like at all anymore, but we have our moments. I can't wait
to see you in November!!! I know that getting to see you will be the
highlight of my year. I love you mister, never forget that. And last,
but definitely not least, Erik.
Erik, you and I have had our great times and our rough times, but I
still love you as much as I did the first day we got together. You're
my other half, I can't go one night without talking to you. You make me
feel so comfortable, by just hearing your voice. You make me laugh by
little things you say / do, and the way you call me your "Country
Girl." I don't know how I'd be if it weren't for you being in my life.
I promise I will get to you soon. I can't go without you. You've shown
me so much, things I can't even begin to start talking about because
it'll just go on and on. I know we're going through a tough time now,
but we'll make it. I know we will. I believe it, 100%.
I'm sorry if you were not mentioned in here, believe me....I have so
many friends that I care for and can't just explain it. A few people I
haven't mentioned but do mean a lot to me are the following: Troy, your music is amazing and you're a great friend. Thanks for all the laughs. Joshy Woshy, we're going to have beautiful box babies. Travis,
I don't know if you still read this but you are one of the best cousins
I could ever ask for. You mean so much to me and I'm so glad that we're
family. Miss. Laura, I know
she doesn't read this but wow, she's an amazing person! I can't wait to
go to college with her.! Wayne, I'm so glad we're still friends!!! That
is all for now.
I promise I will really update this thing about what's going on with
school and all. Possibly tomorrow. I love you all, thanks for reading
this.
<3 Adrienne
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[Aug. 19th, 2005|10:54 pm] |
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Heyyy! So I haven't
updated in like...forever. Today was nice, I went out with my daddy
(daughter, daddy date) and it was pretty fun. First off, we went to see
"The 40 Year Old Virgin"....holy crap, that is one funny movie. When he
gets the wax, uhm....owch!! lol Hmm, then we went to Rack Room Shoes
because dad wanted to buy new shoes. He ends up buying me some too. = )
We then went to Olive Garden, it was so nice. Just having the time to
talk to my dad was exciting, I know more about him and what's going on.
After dinner, we went to Wal-Mart just to get a couple things. [ SARAH,
I got your envelope to send your love letter and mix cd ] Then I came
home, and I'm here. lol
School's so close now, 3 more days. I'm so VERY nervous. = ( I think
I'm totally unaware of the things I need to get done for college and
all. Also, I'm bummed about school because I have no classes with any
of my friends....minus one: Timug and I in Computer Graphics. I'm sure
things will be okay. I hope it goes by fast though.
Speaking of school going by fast, no matter what happens with Erik and
I, I am going to visit him next summer. I definitely will be saving up
to go there....hopefully I'll be driving and maybe a friend could go
with me.
....to update you guys on mine and Erik's situation, we're currently
not together...but we're not totally broken up. I guess we're both
taking our time to think out what's going to happen to us in the future
if we do stay together. We can't totally figure out what will happen,
but we understand our consequences IF we do stay together. It's rough
because, obviously, it's been a year and we haven't got together
yet...and another year is going to be tough. Plus, our busy schedules,
but like we said last night....we'd work it out. I've already made up
my mind that I'm going to stay with him, if he wants. I'm allowing him
time, now, to think over what he wants.
Oh yes, also....I applied at Cato's tonight and I hope I'll get it.
Becky [ whom has left us at JoAnn's as of Friday night = (
] applied there also and they told her to tell anyone that wants (from
JoAnn's) to come in and apply. They apparently really need the help.
I'll be so excited if I get that job with Becky, I love her to death.
Also, Lisa D. <33 went in for an interview with the manager for
assistant manager. O-M-G!!! If Lisa, Becky, and I work together
again...it'll be so great. I mean, really...wouldn't you be so happy if
you knew you were going to a new job with 2 people you love already?! =
) = ) Pray I get it, guys!!!
Last thing, but TOTALLY not least........
I GET TO SEE DENNIS ON NOVEMBER 5!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YAY!! We're going to the Gwen (yes, Adam. Gwen!) show in D.C. Kerry is also going with me, so hello ....groupies for life ! haha
Okay, I guess I'm done now.
<3 Adrienne
Cato
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¤ So, Friday night was the show. That was exciting...great bands. Plus, hello! I got to see miss. kaydee!!! That was one of the more exciting parts of the night. The only thing bad about that was that I was super tired. Ugh! I couldn't enjoy it fully. I wasn't even that excited about Hi Ho, Six Shooter. That makes me real sad. =( =( I guess that's where I will leave off on that night. Oh, well minus the fact that I still liked the show. [ps- collin's voice, for top secret episode, is amazing! ]
¤ Last night I went out to Applebee's with a few people from work (Lisa D., Nikki, Becky, and Mary) because Lisa's last days are coming and we're going to miss her A LOT! Anyway, that was fun...and funny. We talked about all kinds of stuff, Lisa V. and how we all hate her, work, of course, ex-boyfriends / husbands, and a bunch of stuff about sex was brought up also. haha. Then we went to The Snuggery (bar / restaurant / not a restaurant but bar now) in Salem. Mary didn't go with us because her home is so far away. Anyway, we walk up to the door and it says "Must have ID after 9 pm." This was probably around a quarter 'til 12. We walked in, nobody said anything to us. Grabbed a seat, Becky got herself a drink, Lisa...Nikki and I went to the restroom. We come back, sit down and a guy comes up to me "Hey, you have any ID?" haha Yeah, faking that didn't work. The guy was nice though, he wished I could stay. I guess... Anyway, he said Nikki and I could stay and watch Becky sing then we'd have to leave. We went ahead and left....needless to say, Becky and Lisa got home around 6:30 a.m. Becky told me that the guy had told her that they used to allow all ages, all the time, because it was considered a bar AND restaurant. Now, since they have a pool table, it's a bar...and that means 21+ ! That was a very nice night though. I got kicked out of a bar =)
¤ Okay, so here's what's on my mind as of now. Erik. And it's not that good either. I've been thinking of breaking it off...maybe just taking a break but not fully breaking up. =\ Our schedules are / are going to be so different. He's moving and going to U of I and I'm in my last year of high school. He doesn't even have much time when he's off of school, let alone when he's back in school. Maybe I'm being selfish...I don't know. But it's annoying me. I don't know what to do. I'd write more (which I'm sure you'd rather me not) but I'm tired. And work's tomorrow. Night guys!
<333 Adrienne |
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[Jul. 26th, 2005|02:20 am] |
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A hole on your boob is gross. =/
I did fly! While in Myrtle Beach, also. I had fun. I missed home though.
Show Friday and I CAN go. *dances* YAY!!
kbye<3
ps - DANE COOK'S "RETALIATION" CAME OUT TODAY!!!! (it's amazing) |
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[Jun. 21st, 2005|01:58 am] |
I am so going to kick ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) natasevoli out of the house. They keep on stealing my tampons!
This entry automatically generated by the LJ Drama Generator!
I'm pretty sure that's the best thing I've read all day. <3 |
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[Jun. 3rd, 2005|01:25 am] |
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haha @ my dad owning the 50 cent cd!!!
 aaaannnnndddhearts
( And the rest. )
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[May. 11th, 2005|08:16 pm] |
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So, some of you have probably noticed that I've been slightly "distant" lately. I have, and I don't want to be anymore. I'm not sure how long this will last or not but I'm just 'depressed' and I hate using that word so much. I don't even like using it when I know that I've not been told by someone that I do have the symptoms of depression. It just feels like all I want to do anymore is stay in my room, watch tv / listen to music, or sleep. My friends and I never hang out anymore. I don't know who to 'blame' for that one. It's probably me though. I miss going out like every weekend with someone. Mostly it was Kerry, but she's got other people she hangs out with now. Then with Liz, she's really busy lately ...mostly work and WE never hang out. Then with KayDee, she and I try our best..but we suck at making plans and actually doing them. Plus, she has Josh now and I know she wants to spend time with him. (I'm not saying she's dissing me for him though...because I know she's not one to do that) And those are pretty much the only people that I have a chance...or had...with hanging out. I need new friends here. =\ I'm shy though, so it's hard to even start a conversation with anyone. Also, so many things have been getting on my nerves lately. I'm just really irritated is all. I miss Erik, a lot. We barely talk anymore and I know...like I'm positive he won't be coming to visit over the summer. I was hoping for it too much. I wish I could go, I'd save up my money and all...but going by myself to Chicago. That's a little crazy. I still would do it. ...if I could. Work, yeah definitely don't like that either. It sucks. My other "team mates" are so hard to work with, and every time I have a question I'm afriad to ask because they seem like they hate helping me. Lets see...school, my grades are still pretty good but I'm still hating it A LOT. I can't wait until it's over. And I'm so worried, too. I have one more year and I'm contemplating if I'm good enough to get into a college or even do anything involving art. I seem to suck. I have accomplished NOTHING this year in my art class. Everything I've done sucked. I even saw a kid making fun of my stuff, and to tell you the truth, that hurt. I know it sucked, but still...some people just don't understand. And I hate seeing all my friends succeed so well. I'm so jealous, I mean I AM very happy for them. It kind of gets me sad though because I'm not doing anything and I'm apparently the "artist" of my family. I really don't think I'm good enough. Anyway, back to school...I learn more and more of what I have to have to graduate. Jeez, it's stuff I didn't even know. I'm so oblivious to all that stuff. I should have paid attention more. I need to sit down with someone, go through what I need and what I already have. Gosh, this is so much. I'll probably get to more of the stuff I wanted to say later.
<3 Adrienne |
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[May. 2nd, 2005|03:18 pm] |
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I so need to lose weight.
<3 Adrienne |
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[Apr. 27th, 2005|12:15 am] |
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Mom and the boyfriend are doing drugs again. God, they think I'm fucking stupid. I can smell that distinctive smell, and see the way they look, and hear just the stupid, "happy" tone of voice they have when they're on this shit. I'm not a little child anymore, I know what's going on and what's not. I HATE this so much.
KayDee, it's time to find an apartment. <3
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[Apr. 23rd, 2005|11:40 pm] |
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Dear "best friend,"
I'm beginning to hate you.
The things you do, say, and want.
Ugh!!!
I don't want to hate you.
Oh well, it's not like you're doing anything to help.
"<3" Adrienne
( I Wouldn't Front The Scene If You Paid Me ) |
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lol look at that smokin' star
haha i like his tongue & eyes